Million Dollar Question

Does God choose us, or do we choose God? And if God chooses us, then why does He choose so little? These two questions were asked by one of my roommates after she went to her Bible Study about a week ago. When I first heard the questions I immediately said to my roommate “We choose God.” She took in what I said and replied with “Well, if we choose God, then that means we are the ones who have to tell everyone about Him without His help.” I didn’t really know what to say so I kind of shrugged off the question and went on with what I was doing, but those questions have been stuck in my head for a little while now. I feel like this topic is a sensitive topic and it’s hard because it’s like predestination and whatnot. Were we chosen from the beginning? If yes, why were so little chosen? I looked up Zechariah 13:8 and it says “In the whole land, declares the Lord, two thirds shall be cut off and perish, and one third shall be left alive.” This verse has been stuck in my head and I can’t help but get mad about it. I feel like if God chose us than there is no use in us having to go out and preach about Him because He already knows who is going to heaven and if He wants that person than He will get them. Maybe I am thinking about it too much or maybe my thoughts are all screwed up, but I can’t help it. I don’t understand and I just wish I could. When I look at it even more, what are the chances that I was chosen to be part of that one-third? What is the probability that God wants me? Or that all the people I share with are destined to Heaven as well? There are 6,869,927,944 people in the world right now. Two-thirds of them are destined to hell which is 4,579,951,962.6 and one-third is in heaven 2,289,975,981.3. I just feel weird looking at these numbers and knowing so many people are going to a place like hell.

Although I am mad about the numbers and I am completely lost in thought I also think about how lucky that one-third is. Should we really be getting mad that so little are making it to heaven, or should we be praising God that He chose us to live with Him forever? Out of all the people, God knows our hearts and maybe He knows who would have chosen Him if we were the ones who chose Him in the first place… Just because two-thirds is going to perish doesn’t mean that they are not loved, right? God loves everyone; there is no one God can’t love. There is nothing too big for Him and there is nothing He cannot handle. His love is there, but is yours? Maybe that’s the real question…