Live your life, not mine.

There is something I need to throw out there and say because I have been seeing it a lot lately in my life when dealing with people. I have obviously stepped back from religion and God to examine my life and see what it is that I believe in; whether it’s giving my whole life to Jesus or not. I have been looking at these things and really trying to figure it out, but at times it’s hard. I stopped going to church, I don’t attend any ministry and I have secluded myself from a lot of people. This isn’t something that I am keeping a secret because I have nothing to hide from anyone and I’ve stopped caring. With all that being said, just because I stopped going to a bible study, a campus ministry and church doesn’t mean that I have changed who I am. I am still the same Lauren that everyone knows. I am getting tired of having people think that I am running off the deep end and pursing “bad things” just because I don’t have the same “religious views” as them. I still have the same morals and I act no differently than before. It just hurts to know that people think differently of me because of this decision. As Christians, aren’t you supposed to love everyone no matter what? Whether a person is following God, figuring life out or just living life to live, we should all be treated the same. I have not totally stepped away from God; I am just figuring it out. I believe in something bigger than myself because if there wasn’t than I wouldn’t be here – just trust me when I say that.

Another point, I want to make is the fact that we ALL screw up. Christian or not Christian – we all do it. I just feel like when I make a mistake it is a bigger deal because I am “away” from God and not close with Him, and I feel like people have been using that as an excuse as to why I screw up. To be honest, God or no God, I would have still screwed up. I guess with all this being said the point I am trying to make is that I am tired of getting looked down on. I don’t want your sympathy and to be honest I don’t really want your advice. Just let me do my thing – that’s what I want. You can stand back and watch – live your life, not mine.