Life's tough... wear a helmet.

You know it’s funny how much I hate relying on people. I hate asking for help and I hate showing people that I cannot do certain things on my own. When I think about it though, this whole semester I have had to rely on people and it has been the absolute worst feeling. I know it’s a pride thing, I acknowledge that, but I still hate it. I don’t like it because I feel like people are looking down at me and its showing people that I’m weak and in a sense I feel like a huge failure and extremely useless. I would rather walk in the cold than ask for a ride. I’d rather fail a test because I don’t want people to see I need help. I’d rather skip an event than explain to my friends why I cannot go. I’d rather not be in school than ask even my family for help. I guess I am writing this down because I am finding myself in another one of those situations where I need to rely on the people around me to help me get through this season of my life. I am finding my pride getting in the way of everything I do and in a sense it is slowing me down. I shouldn’t be prideful with things I don’t possess. I shouldn’t pretend I have my life held together when I don’t. I shouldn’t be afraid to ask for help and admit to myself and other people that I really cannot do certain things on my own. No one will ever have it all together, so why should I even try and pretend…