The ending words...

I’m sorry I put you through all of the pain pretending to be someone and something I’m not. I’m sorry you’ve watched me go downhill leaving everyone I once loved to finally do things the way I see them. I never meant to pack up and leave the way I did; I figured no one would notice, or maybe they wouldn’t care, but I am happy now. I don’t have to hold up your status any longer, I can be myself without being mistaken for you; I’m not your mini-me anymore. I am my own person, not a follower in your footsteps. I once wanted to be like you, follow in your footsteps, but I’ve learned (the hard way) that making my own footsteps is better for me, so I’m done with you. I see your face get sad when you see who I’ve become, like you had an expectation for me to become more, but I have never been so happy and I’ve never had more than I do now, so don’t be sad. The changes I’ve made were meant for good, not meant for breaking you down and making you go through this situation once again with a loved friend. I am my own. I am free to make my own choices and do what it is that I please to do with my life. I have learned through this situation who is here and who has left. I was told to be open and raw with my life, which is the one thing I hold onto, but now that I have followed that advice, I realized that I lost more than I ever wanted to lose. Nonetheless, I will not change who I am for you. I have my ways and you have yours. I’ll be who I am without you, and you do the same. This is a post to help me cope; it helped me realize that I can be who I really am without hiding it from you. You, who have been there all along, and without realizing it, when you wanted to only help me, pushed me away from it all, allowing me become independent and leaving…you who I thought I needed around.