Maybe it’s time to take a break from everything, to take a step back and run towards the open fields. Life is so short and unexpected and it is something we should never take for granted. To live each day as it comes and accept the challenge’s that are thrown in front of us. Don’t look at something and try to change the situation because you want the easiest way out, instead, look at it face-to-face and challenge it back. There is nothing too hard, to stressful, to complicated, or too anything to deal with, it’s all about how you deal with it and your attitude towards it.
I have been thinking about how I deal with all the situations going on in my life and I realized that I have been dealing with them the wrong way this whole time. I look at my best interest and not the interest of others; selfish of me, I know. When someone does me wrong, I want to do them wrong. When I am not “in” with everything that’s going on in a friend’s life, I don’t open up because I feel like I deserve the right to know about you if you know about me. When I see someone getting away with something wrong, I try my best to get away with something worse so I can “up” them on being a “BA”. I will go the extra mile to make myself look bigger because its how my mind works but in really I am not that big. I play out situations in my head, so I can come out the hero and I pretend people will remember me when I leave. I am trying to make a legend out of myself, but all I am doing is pretending and playing superhero with myself. I am no legend, no hero, no god, no nothing. I tell myself all the time that I put people in front of myself and that I make myself smaller and them bigger, but that is a lie I have been believing to make myself feel better about who I am. My goal is to look to people’s interest before I look to mine. To love everyone equally and actually LOVE them… Saying “I love you” will cut it anymore…
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